Amber (ambernichole83) wrote in after_silence,

Hi everyone this is my first post here, so i just wanted to say hi.  I guess i'm pretty messed up i have an eating disorder and have had a pretty screwed up childhood, but most everyone on here has to and knowing your not alone is the greatest thing in the world!  Here is a quick shap shot of what my life has been like lol  I copied it from my livejournal.

1. My Mother left my biological Father and took me up to Alaska
2. I was molested by my 2 cousins when I was 4yo, my mom still doesn’t believe me.
3. My BioDad kidnapped me from Alaska and had me for 9 months
4. The FBI tracked him down and found us, they said I was in bad shape  from lack of food and care
5. Everything was pretty good until I was about 12yo although I always had low self-esteem
6. I got back in contact with my biodad mostly from curiosity when I was about 12
7. He started drugging me and molesting me after a year of knowing him (I was still living with my mom most of the time, but I was too scared to tell her what was going on)
8 It got worse and he forced me and his new wife to do stuff on video, which he forced us to watch when we weren’t drugged. (I was still scared, he was a big illegal gun/drug dealer)
9.  He got me to try crack (lied and told me it was just marijuana THC) and got me hooked on it.
10. I lost a lot of weight and wanted to kill myself (that’s where my ED started)
11. My mom decide to move so I ended up moving 400 miles away when I was 15yo.
12. I finally told my mom a little and we tried to press charges.  He was suppose to get 10 life sentences, but all the reports and files disappeared so they said nothing else could be done.  (my biodad had big connections)
13.  He came to where we moved and put an AK47 to my head and threatened me
14. He ended up moving to Florida and the ATF and FBI put him in prison for having illegal guns for only eighteen months, he got out a few years ago and I have no idea where he is now, probably New York
15. When I was about 15-16 I became really premiscus, finding attention where ever I could get it
16. I ended up dropping out of school when I was 16, but I got my GED
17. I met my husband when I was 17 and I got pregnant soon after, we got married before I had my first baby
18. I had my son on 1-7-02, then I got pregnant again when my son was 2 months old
19. I had my daughter on 12-12-02
20.About a year after my daughter was born my marriage started going downhill because I know he was cheating.
21. I left him and got really bad into meth and coke and actually started dealing it too to support my/my sisters habits.  We both became a strippers for a little while.  That all stopped when DEA busted my sister for having meth labs.
22. Me and my husband ended up working stuff out and we got back together and decided to move to Florida to get away from all the drama.
23.  We have been down here for almost 2 years and have been doing really good, but since I have been off the drugs and everything my have gained my weight back and I can’t handle being fat.

That was a basic summery, there is even more than that, but I think that sums it up pretty good.

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